The poignancy of “wondering” whether or not we make an impact on those people we were once so connected with speaks volumes in this piece. As much as we want to know that the other person is just as affected as we are, some part of us knows that the wish or hope is futile… otherwise they would still be there – right?
A walking stereotype, Charlotte Cuevas is exactly what you’d expect from a children’s librarian and freelance writer- most days you’ll find her bustling about here and there, balancing coffee and a stack of books, fingers stained with ink and pearls jangling. She’s quite serious about poetry, literature, personal growth, and figuring out how to rebuff society’s standards when she’s most content fitting right into them.
The 365 Poetry Project is Charlotte’s attempt to push herself to a greater mastery of the craft, as opposed to her wonderful penchant for writing “whenever I feel like it.” She in no way claims that it was her idea; only that it feels like something she need to do. http://charlottecuevas.wordpress.com
I wonder if it’s because you feel me
that you reach to touch
I wonder if you roll over at night
half-awake, for hogging the blankets
when I’m not there.
I wonder if you know I’m leaving
if it’s only subconsciously
that your instincts react
but you don’t know why.
I wonder if some part of you panics
to sense that I’m already gone.
I wonder where you were
when I left.